#42.2, Thurs., March 2, 2023

Historical setting: 602 C.E. Cottage in the Vosges

         Always changing, always new is the constant of a farm. Thole brought us a mule the summer after the twins were born, the foal of Ana’s Teardrop and Colleen’s donkey, Jack.  With a mule for the hard work of it and a cow for the milk and cheese, and the tiny little donkey taking us where we want to go in a little cart we’ve always been able to keep the farm and its people and critters strong and fed. What else is there to say about a good life, but thank you, Dear God.

         Ana is still straight and strong and wise though by now her childish ways have turned to ageless grace.

         Strange as it may seem to have two sets of twins, after Gabe and Greg another pair was born. That was a difficult birthing and Ana blames herself for not taking the same care with these twins that Colleen had required for her with the first twins. But how could she spend all those weeks sitting in bed spinning yarn while we had two toddlers to keep watch over?  I alone couldn’t do everything for the two babies and for the farm chores as well. So maybe it was my fault more than hers that she couldn’t take the rest that was needed.

         We named that twin who lived after my father, Simon*. The other child named Samuel, is buried with a raw stone for a marker in the beautiful place behind the well where only flowers may grow. Ana chooses to hide her grief from the children. But we still grieve for him. It was two years before we dared take a chance on setting another child into life. Then, after the boys, a girl was born to us. I thought she was a baby Ana.  She was blue-eyed and fair — always aware of faces — early with words. She was always naming things and searching out reasons. But Ana chose her name despite my wishes. So we know she is Hannah – Hannah beautiful and wise. Ana nurtured that little Hannah baby thinking always of how long she waited for the girl child and how often she sang Hannah’s song for justice. [I Samuel 2] 

       We often take our laments and our grieving, along with so much gratitude to the altars of the little secular church in the woods.

*A note to followers — Simon’s story is also a novella which mirrors the April through July blog posts this year. This blogger hopes to make that available, either in an e-book format or as a pdf to be a free gift to followers of this blog. (More info. to come in April.)

(Continues Tuesday, March 7)

#42.1, Weds., March 1, 2023

Historical setting: 602 C.E. Cottage in the Vosges

         Change is the nature of things that grow and things that heal and living things we come to know. Twelve years have passed. We know how it was, and how it is and there is a big difference between the “was” and the “is” but these deep changes happened in God’s time, barely noticed by Ana and me. Yet all this growing new and healing is significant and in fact, world-changing.  Poets call it the “fullness” of time, or maybe in everyday human terms it seems the absence of time.

         Ana is seasoned now, having born our eight children, and seven of them have lived into their childhoods. Well, Gabe and Greg don’t think they are yet children. They believe they are fully men, even though Ana and I know them for who they are. They look at one another and are assured they are simply small-statured, barefaced men. They push themselves to be the wonders of humankind they believe they already are.  If I do say so, as the father of these “men,” they are exceptionally brilliant in their studies and each has his own beautiful gifts in music and rhetoric.

         Yes, we did have those two babies baptized soon after I last wrote in this journal. We took them to the “secular” church where Mater Doe gave them a proper Christian sprinkling. So we have been off to that church in the hills above Annegray for all these holy days since. At special times, as with the Mass for the Blessing of the Hunt and the Christ Mass, we take Colleen’s donkey, Jack, who lives in our stable now, towing the cart with Ana and the littlest children while the rest of us walk over the hills and into the forest for worship.

         We share in the breaking of the bread with the family of hunters we met so many years ago when Colleen was with us, just before the births of the twins.

    Colleen is living as a nun now, at Luxeuil, but our nearer neighbors still stop off at our cottage on their trek back from church to their woodland home.  We dry shoes of all sizes on the hearth and we still share the porridge or possets according to the seasons.

         The child with the wet boot we first dried at our hearth is named Charlie. Now he is an older friend, like a big brother, to our boys.

(Continues tomorrow)

Catching up with the plot

        

NOTE TO FOLLOWERS OF THIS SERIAL STORY — Thank you for following. If you are human, and lose track of the story from time to time, the “catching up with the story line” is posted monthly on the home page. This month begins a whole new century skipping a few years. So it is a new start for all.

The February Chapter (and before) concludes the 6th century part of this saga and sets the scene for Ana and Lazarus to enter a new era. The magical wonders of tribal Paganism and the Celtic influence on Christianity continue to exist into the 7th century and even today, but are less evolving having been etched in stone as tradition. Symbols of Christmas, popular adherence to Creed, liturgical practices and structure have become the foundation stones of a religion.

         The March Chapter “Passing Time” begins twelve years after the February chapter ended, and now it is 602 C.E., with Laz and Ana’s boys, Gabriel and Gregory, twelve-year-olds, nearly adults in that time. Now there are seven children in all. Going forward this family of farmers picks a pathway through new power structures rising from the dank tunnels and dungeons called, by some, the ‘dark ages.’

#41.12, Tues., Feb. 28, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         Brother Servant arrived here with a bird to send messages to Luxeuil.  So our message announcing the births of our sons probably set the dovecote at Annegray atwitter but never actually reached any human eyes.  Colleen is serving our guest while in the other room Ana and the Sisters of Laon are preparing the babies for the grand entrance. Colleen is asking the monk about the general requirements for becoming a nun. He told her of a teacher available, but he knows her question is personal and he answers her directly.

         “By the grace of God, you will find you belong there.”

          “Why would you think I was asking for myself?

         Brother Servant answers, “When I said we have a teacher I could see in you a holy twinkle of hope. I knew you weren’t just asking on behalf of the two Sisters from Laon who already read and write.”

         Now they are all here in our midst. Brother Servant leaps to his feet so fast his sitting bench tips backwards and startles the sleepy little Gabe in Ana’s arms. Sister Marcella brings Gregory right behind Ana and Gabriel, and Sister Paula closes the door behind them. The monk is truly agape at this beautiful procession of women and babies. Surely the Irish monks had a thought of it, but they received no message to confirm.

         He captures his awe back and makes his thankful prayer, “Dear Holy Creator God, thank you for sending babies to Ezra and Ana after all. In the name of the Father the Son and the Holy Spirit receive our gratitude, Amen.”

         God has heard that same prayer over and over again these last few days, and now it is repeated with all the unctuous verbiage of a holy man. It is nearly like a baptism, but not. And that begs the next question, probably most fittingly my place to ask.

         “Brother Servant, would you suppose Father Columbanus would baptize these babies, or is the parish church behind Annegray the recommended place for that?”

         “That secular church is closer to you than is Father Columbanus, now that we have moved, so I can understand why you ask, but that place is rumored to be a cauldron of hellish Paganism.  Until it can find some saintly purification and sanctification it might be a snake pit of heresy. It is no place for practicing Christians.”

(Continues Wednesday, March 1, 2023)

#41.11, Thurs., Feb. 23, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         “Bringing a new bird now.” That was the message that arrived today on the leg of one of our birds.  We had sent a message to Annegray that the boys arrived safely but we had not heard back, nor had we received the visitors we were expecting.  Apparently Colleen is the only one concerned about baptism immediately. So now we hear that Brother Servant is coming today.

         Our guest with the new bird doesn’t arrive until this afternoon. He has just come all the way from Luxeuil.  He tells us this grayish feathered bird he brings was fledged at Luxeuil and that is where any messages should be sent from now on. We expect our message of the news of our family landed unread at the dovecote of Annegray, as no one is there anymore but the pigeons.

         Brother Servant has barely laid his winter cloak aside when Sister Paula and Colleen have already provided him with hot tea and biscuits.

         “So you’ve moved on to Luxeuil?” I ask Brother Servant.

         “Indeed.  And it all seems a deliberate temptation to threaten our vows. Where is our poverty when we bask like emperors in the soothing waters? How can we be obedient when vast corridors keep the Father at such a distance we can’t even hear his voice. And our obedience to God is challenged by the awe of so much ancient pagan beauty.”

         “You’ll surely make it your home soon, with lots of endless psalm singing. I imagine those old Roman halls will chant the new songs of Christians any day now. And you have a church bell to announce the hour.”

         Brother Servant argues, “When all the sisters arrive even the chastity of some of the brothers may be at stake.”

         Colleen finds a place with us at the table, as Sister Paula goes to the other room to let Ana know of our guest.

         Colleen assures Brother Servant the vow of chastity is not entrusted to the monks alone. “Surely the women of Luxeuil will mind those vows most solemnly.” And she asks, “Brother Servant, just what is required by Father Columbanus for a woman to belong to that community?”

         The Irish monk raises his eyebrows and looks straight at Colleen. There is an excellent teacher already there so you can practice reading and writing when you are there. So whenever your spirit is ready you will be received.

(Continues Tuesday, February 28)

#41.10, Weds., Feb. 22, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         Sister Marcella always keeps her eye on the hour, and she is expecting the babies will be waking just now.  Ana sits with the first son in the chair, and opens her tunic.  Sister Marcella checks on Gabriel, still sleeping soundly.

         “His name is Gabriel” I whisper to her.

         “You’ve named them already?”

         “Yes.” Ana answers.

         “And who is this fine fellow?” Sister Marcella asks.

         I answer, “We are still waiting for his name to be revealed.”

         “Well,” answers Sister Marcella, “You had better name him something more down to earth than Gabriel.  God knows we have enough flitting angels already, and the saints are way too heavenly for this strong boy.  Name him for the new pope why not?”

         “Gregory?” Ana considers it.

         I can say, “We don’t even know the new pope.  Maybe he isn’t one we would want to remember in this way.”

         Ana argues, “I like the way it sounds though. Gregory seems a noble name, and it is so popular now, every churchman it seems is naming himself for a Gregory.”

         I add, “I happen to know Gregory, Bishop of Tours took his name from one of his own noble relatives.  In his youth he was called George.”

         “Well we certainly won’t name this little fellow George,” announces Ana.  “But saints and nobles aside, Gregory is a popular name, so it could mean any good Gregory, now-a-days, and he could make a name for himself of it.  And when you realize that all we know of Pope Gregory we’ve learned from messengers on fine horses all dressed up so pretty in silks, surely Gregory is a worthy name for this child.”

         So we name both our boys for well-dressed messengers, one with feathered wings and the other on horses – the horses that bring the news.  It seems right enough, since these boys were conceived on our journey when we were messengers for Father Columbanus. And that Father is named for the birds that carry the messages to and from the monastery. Or, was it that the birds were named for him? Names after names both honor and confuse.

         Ana affirms, “with a pope by the name Gregory there will be lots of Gregorys; so he will become known for who he is, not who he is named for.”

         “Very well” I agree, “So be it, Gregory is this first born.”

(Continues tomorrow)

#41.9, Tues., Feb 21, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         Both babies are well today. The three nuns-to-be and I use a little flask with a spoon top to feed one of them while Ana has the other.  It is a very nice thing to hold a baby and to nurture his strength with milk while his bright eyes stare into the parent face linking soul to sound, so of course I sing. “Lu, lu,” and the baby shapes his lips to “oooo.” Of course my little man can sing! As long as the song is this one note and syllable of his own choosing. These Sisters think I’m silly. Wait until my hands are free and I will build a harp. Then they will recognize the baby sound as singing. It is all about the imagination and the accompaniment.

         I carry in the bundles of wood to keep both fires, and we have two caldrons of water aways filled: one for washing and the other for cooking. Ana is strong and able to tend to the babies, and she helps  with the ceaseless washing of the linens. So in this quiet moment when the women are in cooking, and the babies are sleeping, Ana and I launder the endless baby clothes, rinsing and washing, rinsing again and wringing, hanging them on the lines by the fire in the bedroom. It is in this moment we can talk.

         “What should we name them?”

         “Is it too soon to give them names?”

         “Ana, how could it be too soon for names? We would surely grieve for them were they not to be. Our grief would need a name, but so too does our gratitude for their little beings, their sounds and songs and cries… we already know them. So what names should we call them by?”

         “I already call the second one Gabriel. He shows me courage through the most questionable darkness, and through his trust and perseverance he speaks the incessant angel message, ‘don’t be afraid.’ In his baby grapple for message he speaks of God’s relentless love.”

         “Gabriel, he is. Did we name him, or just discover his name?“

         The first boy stirs in the cradle, and Ana goes over and picks him up, even before he cries. She asks him his name. He stares into her face still wondering at the meaning of any words at all.

         Sister Marcella taps on the door.

         (Continues tomorrow)

#41.8, Thurs., Feb. 16, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         Ana is concerned about the smaller baby fearing he isn’t well. Colleen and the sisters don’t find this unusual. Being born is always dangerous, and these two infants have just come through that most terrifying journey into life. 

         But Ana is especially concerned and so we all are. She takes great care to keep him warm and when he seems warm she fears a fever. He does seem fussy and not as enthusiastic about the breast as his brother, but maybe the babies are just different from one another.

         Colleen says we need to have them baptized immediately. And Ana wants to give the babies baths with or without the blessings so she asks Colleen to prepare the large earthen bowl with tepid water. I’m sure that isn’t what Colleen meant by baptism.

         Once in a time before Jesus was even famous, my sister followed one of the charismatic leaders of new theologies arising within Judaism. Mary followed John. And Jesus also followed him. John was preaching near our home in Bethany making the bathing in the Jordan into a holy cleansing – offering repentance – a turning around – a change.

         As I am reminded seeing the Roman ruins in Luxovium and Metz, bathing was a popular social gathering back then. So all of us, in our little clusters of Christians following the changing ways of Judaism, were seeing all things of daily life as ritual “on earth as it is in heaven.” By the blessings of John, bathing became a sacrament. And by the blessings of Jesus feasting became a sacrament. [Footnote]

         I’ve seen it myself. First the baths and the feasts were social gatherings, then they were symbol, then sacrament, then sacrament became a single order by holy proclamation and sacrament and creed became an organized religion. Now, by symbol of bathing both body and spirit become new. This Christian ritual seems a fine thing to me, after-all, I was presented at the temple for the briss when I was only eight days old. I don’t remember that at all but surely it was a way bigger physical commitment than simply cooling the fevers of birth with a sprinkling.

         So if Ana wants to bathe the little fellow, wash him, restore the comfort of well-being to the tiny little body, it seems a good plan. Call it what you will.

        

[Footnote] If history were only about old stuff it wouldn’t be as interesting. The cultural importance of bathing in Jesus time is considered in a full chapter in The Westar Christianity Seminar takes a new look at an old time in A Historical exploration of the first two centuries of Jesus movement after Jesus and before Christianity, Erin Vearncombe, Brandon Scott, and Hal Taussig: Harper One, 2021, Part II, Chapter 12.

Photo credit: Rev. Christopher Marlin-Warfield, “From the bridge at Knoff Family Reservation”

(Continues Tuesday, February 21)

#41.7, Weds., Feb. 15, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         When two babies sleep the mother sleeps, the midwives get their rest, and so many thoughts and notions, remembrances and dreams race through my imagination just now. I can be the one who is awake to rock the cradle.

         I can remember lullabies. It’s been a very long time since I’ve sung an actual song other than chanting psalms. At this moment I can sort of understand how lullabies get such strange lyrics. They are a low hum of music forced into breath in a fog of new birth, crazy world of light and life, mother screaming for life, father fainting for helplessness, and now the stillness of fatigue and need and hunger plunging more humans into the earthly world of need.  What is there to eat? Send the little red bird off to find a seed, a bug, a twisting little worm — things only a famished dad would think of. There are no lullabies in my head that have any sense of reality. Whose imagination do they quill — baby’s or the father’s?

         “All night long, we’ve worked so hard to keep these human babies safe, and now you can only sing of birds?”

         Ana is awake and grinning at me across her pillow.

         “Shhh they’re both sleeping now.”

         “Well, don’t stop singing just because they’re sleeping.”

         To Ana I sing,

         “Laz, wake up.  You can’t sleep when you are the one keeping watch.”

         A baby is crying, and Ana caught me sleeping. Now Sister Paula has already come in with a clean wrap for the baby.

(Continues tomorrow)

#41.6, Tues., Feb. 14, 2023

Historical setting: 590 C.E. Cottage between Annegray and Luxeuil

         It was a very long night. And now this disheveled morning is dizzy with sleeplessness. I add more wood to the fires. In our minds this is the good ending we were praying for. In our hearts we are not so sure. Actually, Ana and I prayed that we could find our way through this however it turned out. The idea of perfect little humans, smiling with fluffy pink checks, babies seeing us all with Ana’s eyes, for all the wonder, we really hadn’t spoken that prayer aloud. The one we did say was the “‘not my will but yours’ dear God.” And by grace, Ana is exhausted, but Colleen says she is well, and here are two little boys, red and scrawny, with round eyes like turtle’s eyes, or maybe little hatchling sparrows fallen from the nest without feathers. Ana knows they are both very delicate and tiny. She worries that she didn’t spend enough time waiting for them in the stillness of the bed. She begs me to tell her she didn’t accidentally hurry them too fast. I promised her she did her very best, and they have the best possible mother.

         Colleen has more encouraging words than I’ve ever heard from her. She tells Ana she is doing well and the babies are perfect. She has prepared something of a thinned posset to give them nourishment if they can’t figure out Ana’s offering of her breast, but the first, the first born, has already discovered how to do this thing and now he is sleeping soundly, and the second is making his try. This must be very tiring for Ana but she is so hopeful to try this and she isn’t even thinking of herself right now. It all did take more time and worry than we were really prepared for. So three midwives a new father and a new mother are all-in just now.

         Now this restacking wood to bring the woodpiles inside seems a peaceful reprieve. I actually find myself hoping the women will assign me more useful tasks.

         The first baby has had a taste of his mother’s milk, and now the second has figured out the technique.  As far as the women are concerned this is complete success. The babies are sleeping in their huge woolen buntings, tiny little promises of new life in the long carved cradle intended for two much larger-sized babies to be rocked so efficiently both at one time.

(Continues tomorrow)